I constantly need to remind myself that I actually need to earn something for myself in order to be respected and such so I need to make a list of the things that I want to achieve this year. I might change my mind along the way but since I like stalking myself, I will post my “goals” here and check it back by the end of the year to see what I’ve accomplished. Resolutions are a fraud for me so I just need a set of goals that will somehow make me change my slacker routine.
It’s currently 2am and I’m contemplating whether I should delete this post or just abandon it completely. But I’m also thinking about how I should really stop procrastinating so here I am trying hard to finish this post for my 2020 self.
So I guess that’s the start of the list: procrastination. I need to lessen that habit of mine. It’s probably one of the reasons why I sleep so late. (ie, now) I want to finish this thing but I let myself be distracted by other things because I keep thinking that I have lots of time. Which leads me to my second goal: time management. It’s my hit or miss. I either get everything done with time to spare or I just don’t do anything at all. I need to stop thinking I’ve got so much time because honestly, I don’t have much. Third, I want to own a camera or a go pro, not sure how am I going to acquire one when I spend my money online shopping like there’s no tomorrow so my fourth goal is to lessen my online shopping frenzy. “Retail therapy won’t repair your damaged sense of self-worth” is what I read this morning thanks to facebook and channelnewsasia; which leads me to my fifth goal: less time on social media. I mean, I don’t really post a lot on facebook and I really don’t care about it sometimes but to be honest it still takes up most of my time. Scrolling on social media feeds is such an easy thing to do so it’s also easy to lose your sense of time in it. I really can’t promise posting less on my ig stories so I’m not putting that here. Hmm, I can’t really think of anything else I want to do at this point other than travel but the need to save money is greater than my urge to book a flight to somewhere. I would also like to travel alone but I’m not sure I would be able to do that this year because duh, money. So my sixth goal is to at least save a small amount of money by the end of the year and by that I mean, no more debts to anyone (so far, I only have debts to my parents) I want to be financially responsible enough that I don’t spend my money on unnecessary shit even though I tell myself I deserve it. Seventh goal is brought on by my dire need of comfort from candles or any flammable objects such as my sparkly lights that my mother hates because it’s uh, a fire-hazard. I already finished all my candles, which also burned out so badly. Yikes. But honestly, I want more scented candles and I really wish Bath & Body Works is somewhere near our house but it isn’t. Eight goal is my yearly goal which is to continue reading more books! Don’t lose your focus on what really matters in life! Books are my friends! My ninth goal is also more of my yearly goal which is to stay organized!! Because hell, my life is a mess and “organizing” my stuff is the only way I can make myself believe that I’ve got everything under control and lastly (well, at least for this post) I’ve got so many goals but I don’t want to over-do this post and do so badly in the end so I’m just gonna end it in ten. I want to sleep earlier than 2am or maybe even 3am if it’s too much to ask. Please, self. You can do this. You don’t need pills or to tire yourself out just so you can sleep in. You can do this. But it’s already 2:50am so maybe I can let this one day slip.. Bye!
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